summer 2003 28 august 2003 i have been refusing to listen to liz phair's new album, but i have to say, on a whim i popped whip-smart into the cd changer and i've hit repeat more times than i would like to admit. off to the races, see you soon. 27 august 2003 i forgot to look for mars last night. i heard that you could see it pretty clearly. i heard it in my yoga class actually, i can't imagine you can really see much from this city. last summer in crete was awesome, you could see out to the milky way. i also saw my first two shooting stars. so apparently, there is a lot of cosmic stuff going on. mars' proximity suggests a very heavy energy, but we are also in a new moon period, as well as on the brink of mercury retrograde. i can feel it all over the place, but i am accepting it and going with it. thankfully, my yoga class was pretty easygoing today, i just wasn't really up for much else. i did a movie marathon last night. one of the movies i saw was The Secret Life of Dentists. it was pretty interesting. there was probably a little too much gratuitous vomiting for my tastes (family of 5 gets the stomach virus), but i made it through. the story is about 2 dentists that are married to each other and have 3 daughters. the wife is having an affair, but the husband doesn't want to believe it or deal with it, so he does whatever he can to make sure she doesn't have the opportunity to tell him. throughout all of his mental processes, he is visited and counseled by one belligerent former patient (played by denis leary). denial, it's a lovely thing. as for the other movie, it was light fare in its purest form, and also my little secret. close - Being near in space or time. - Being near in relationship: close relatives. - Bound by mutual interests, loyalties, or affections; intimate: close friends. - Having little or no space between elements or parts; tight and compact: a close weave. - Being on the brink of: close to tears. - Decided by a narrow margin; almost even: a close election. - Faithful to the original: a close copy. - Rigorous; thorough: close attention; close supervision. - Shut; closed. - Strictly confined or guarded: kept under close custody. - Hidden from view; secluded. - Secretive; reticent: was close about her personal life. - Giving or spending with reluctance; stingy. 26 august 2003 i don't care how things are supposed to be, should be, will be... i am just learning as i go. my stomach is sick today. i think i ate some bad eggs, maybe because i was walking on eggshells, figuratively of course. when i first started doing yoga last year, my stomach got really sick. i think my body freaks out and just has to detox. i know that you all wanted to know that. 2 words from dictionary.com. i edited the lengthy definitions somewhat. honest - Not deceptive or fraudulent; genuine: honest weight. - Sincere; frank: an honest critique. - Of good repute; respectable. - Without affectation; plain: honest folk. open - Affording unobstructed entrance and exit; not shut or closed. - Having no protecting or concealing cover: an open wound; an open sports car. - Carried on in full view: open warfare; open family strife. - Spread out; unfolded: an open book. - Free from limitations, boundaries, or restrictions: open registration. - Susceptible; vulnerable: open to interpretation; an issue that is open to question. - Willing to consider or deal with something: open to suggestions. - Available; obtainable: The job is still open. - Not yet decided; subject to further thought: an open question. - Characterized by lack of pretense or reserve; candid: Please be open with me. - Generous: He is very open with his time. 25 august 2003 what an awesome weekend... this weather totally rules. i wish it could be this way every day. i better move back to california, stat! my email is still acting funny and it's really annoying. i can't tell if it's this weird server thing or the worm virus thing that seems to be trashing the world's computers. so if i haven't responded to your email, i most likely didn't get it. sorry. there were some disturbances in my home this weekend, one roommate left and another one moved in. after months of crazy instability, i think i now have some peace -- for the moment anyway. i'll take what i can get! summer is almost over! then what happens? 23 august 2003 dear stellar friends, i hope that you weren't too sad that i had 'gone fishin' for a few days. i've got a couple of reasons for that. my technical reason is that my server was upgraded last weekend and i was having all sorts of screwy problems with the DNS updating in the background. it was pretty funky, emails that went into a black hole for a few days and / or had to be checked at different addresses. unresolved IP addresses and the like. it wasn't pretty. those issues seem to have been resolved, so here i am again. here is another reason that i haven't been writing. i have been livejournaling quite a bit. you may remember reading about my adventures in crete last summer on my livejournal. now what i write there is actually only readable by a select group of other livejournaling friends. i've really gotten hooked on it, which may have been another reason why stellargirl has been pretty quiet. and yet, more reasons. it's summer. no one really seems to be around and reading all that much anyway. or are you? i guess it's been so long since i wrote anything interesting on here, so i really don't know who's reading. i did a little sleuthing the other night at archive.org and read some old entries on stellargirl in their original design. i have had this site now for over 3 years, and i go through phases with heavy updates, and others with long silences, just because maybe my life has gotten busier or other things have been going on. you understand, right? so hello, nice to see you again. hope you didn't miss me too much. it's been a long hot summer, and i've been busy with a lot of different things. i am juggling a few freelance projects and also dipping my toes in the waters of catering. yes, i am finally doing something with that pesky culinary degree. i realize that i have been a little slower to act on things in the past year. i don't know if i am just lazy, or i adopted a different kind of energy after living in a peripheral little enclave in crete for a summer. i spent a lot of years being extremely impulsive about my decisions. poof! i am going to rome! i am moving apartments! i am changing my major! i am moving to san francisco! i am quitting my job! i am cutting my hair! i am going to cooking school! i am going to crete! my brain has spun millions of miles an hour, and now i am just trying to let things evolve a little bit more organically. i've been lucky that the middle of summer signaled a turning point for me, where things have slowly been moving in the right direction. i might have patience to thank for that, perhaps luck, maybe even my complete reliance on susan miller's monthlong astrologyzone forecasts. it might even have something to do with the economy inching forward just the slightest little bit. in any event, at this moment, all i am doing is making the choice to be OPEN to new possibilities, rather than deciding how things are going to be before they happen. yoga is helping with this a great deal and the practice i have been developing since before i went to crete has been helping me chip away at all of these questions and concerns about my path. the only thing i can do is fight to keep my heart and mind open and always move forward, either by leaps or tiny steps. i hope everyone is enjoying their summer. happy birthdays past and upcoming to jessica, nicole, joseph, christine, federico and to my dad. 13 august 2003 lucky 13. stereolab mars audiac quintet summer 1996 1310 rodman street philadelphia, PA hot summer nights on dirty streets 05 august 2003 there are some new pictures from this weekend in the photo section. me and some of the glitterati bid farewell to our friend kari who is off to the greener pastures of pittsburgh, PA to attend grad school. i also said farewell to michelle this morning, who is currently on a flight back to japan. so many friends coming and going recently. so many people so busy that i never see them at all. 01 august 2003 i feel like it's a given that most people i know are on friendster.com. i realize i am so behind the times in mentioning it here, even TimeOut has done a report on it. most people have the same reaction when invited: what is this? why do i need to sign up for this? i think i will pass....until they get another invitation, from another person, and another, from the same person and then perhaps they start thinking, well maybe i should see what all the fuss is about. and then you are hooked. it's a great tool for seeing how all of your peers are interconnected and perhaps even meeting new people, because, well, they are friends with your friends, right? it's also fun to look up people from your past and realize that you are still connected to them in some way. the world seems to get smaller all the time. 31 july 2003 i just want to say that this article on gay marriage makes me mad -- and that i think GAY MARRIAGE SHOULD BE LEGAL. if people are gay, and they want to get married, their union is not unholy or immoral. it's 2003 already! there are far more pressing issues in this country such as: why thee are still soldiers dying in iraq, why are we even in iraq, shitty economy, unemployment, poor health care system... etc. etc. etc. i watched Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead today, talk about a blast from the past. 1991! where were you in 1991? i was in ninth grade, wearing clothes from the Gap and hanging out with my girlfriends, probably obsessing over boys while reading Sassy magazine. those were the days. glad they are long gone! 30 july 2003 congratulations to vagabonding stellarfriends erich y sara, word on the street is that they are now engaged!! read about their latest adventures in los caminantes. also, check out the photo section where you will find a few new groups of images -- specifically HOY performing at luna lounge from this past monday night. what do you think of the new look? please discuss on the stellarboards! also, web geeks: i need a link color!! not sure how i feel about this yellow color or this color. help please. 28 july 2003 hey now. lookey here! i changed things around a bit. hope you don't mind. i have been talking about it for ages, i know. things are still a bit buggy. i could work on this for days straight, but i have other places that i have to be!! stay tuned for lots more content coming this week including a new report from los caminantes and new photos. hope everyone is having a fun summer! 21 july 2003 hello! here i am again! just poppin' in for a moment. i am working on some major redevelopment behind the scenes right now, but i could not withhold all of these new pictures i have from the last few weeks! check them out in the photo section! 25 june 2003 holy crap! it's been over a month since my last update! i apologize stellarfriends!! i finally got my DSL up and running again at home after many calls to customer service. and here we are, almost the end of june, with summer temperatures here at last. i am in complete denial that the mercury is going to be pushing 100 degrees today and tomorrow... but i guess that's what i have to start getting used to. i swear, i have way more interesting things to talk about than the weather, and i will talk about them the next time i sign on. thing is, it's 7am and i gotta get to work. i can't wait until i can laze about a bit longer and start work after 9 like most normal people. anyway, i will be back soon, i promise!! enjoy summer! april 2004 march 2004 february 2004 january 2004 december 2003 november 2003 october 2003 september 2003 summer 2003 may 2003 april 2003 march 2003 february 2003 january 2003 december 2002 november 2002 october 2002 september 2002 august 2002 summer 2002 april 2002 feb / march 2002 january 2002 december 2001 november 2001 sept / oct 2001 july / aug 2001 june 2001 may 2001 april 2001 march 2001 february 2001 january 2001 december 2000 november 2000 october 2000 september 2000 summer 2000 copyright © 2000-2005 - www.stellargirl.com