september 2002 22 september 2002 hey, i got my act together!! well, umm, on stellargirl that is. i put together a new section devoted to my friends from getcrafty. it's called she's crafty. click on over and check it out. my friend from philadelphia came up last night to play a show in brooklyn. it was super fun. i can't remember the last time i saw live music. i mean, really, i never go to shows anymore. i think i got sick of all the scenester bullshit. but good music is good music. and it's always fun to see your friends play! i got 2 really amazing surprises in my mailbox yesterday, letters from Laini and Christina of crete fame. thanks so much for writing. i miss you so much! 21 september 2002 i am really confused right now. i have some ideas about what i want to do with my life, but i feel like i am not accomplishing any of these things where i am. but i am not really sure if a change of scenery is going to make everything come together. i live in a city that is really expensive with a crap job market, but also with lots of great people, culture, events, etc. i am torn between doing whatever it is that i have to do to make it work and realizing that this might not be the place for me right now. i guess this is personal stuff, i don't really like to admit that i don't have it all figured out. so i will admit it! I DON'T HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT! the truth is, i don't think anyone does. which makes it hard to find guidance. 17 september 2002 on sunday, i hosted my second naked lady party with the girls from getcrafty. we had such a fun time. just so you know, a naked lady party is a clothing swap. clean out your closet, bring it over, and then you pick what you want sort of auction style. i took lots of pictures which will be online once i create my new crafty section. i have to, since we have all been getting together so much lately! cheers for super cool and crafty girls! also, i have a new link in my sites worth seeing section, aesthetica projects. check it out! happy birthday christine!! we miss you over here in america, come back soon! 14 september 2002 letters from japan, new in the vagabond section. more later. 9 september 2002 wow, did the postman ever ring twice today! i got a small package from michelle all the way from JAPAN (see her in vagabond really soon!) and a letter from laini in ENGLAND and a gold mastercard!! yeah!! i need to destroy that last one actually. but the other ones were wonderful and unexpected. my paper correspondence is currently at an all time low, especially when you compare it to the missives i scrawled out this past summer. i swear that will be changing faraway friends. keep your eyes on the mailbox. i have been in a totally contemplative mood of late since i have had quite a bit of extra time on my hands. this employment thing is really for the birds. i am a little disgruntled that it seems to be so hard to find work. the real problem is, i know i am really not at the mercy of anyone but myself, but it's a matter of going ahead and making it happen. small steps are being taken in the background. the rewards will be felt soon. 4 september 2002 i am a little confused right now. the economy is totally in the shitter and i am sort of at a crossroads about what to do with my life. my doomsday point of view is really down in the dumps, thinking that nothing is going to turn around, while my glass is half-full side is mildly aware that i am in the perfect position to do some really cool stuff. i have to focus on that energy. to start, i put some shoes that i have never worn on ebay. nobody ever said income had to come from a job, right? so what a big change all of this is from my summer. a typical day in crete was spent like this: 5:45 am - wake up, get dressed, trudge up the hill to the kitchen and immediately start baking a cake and then breakfast and lunch for 75 people. 1:30ish - finish cleaning up, go to my room, veg out / nap for an hour 3:00 - trek to long beach, sunbathe, swim, think, etc. 8:00 - eat dinner with friends 9:00 - drink tea 10:00 - read a book or hang out at taverna 11:30 - sleep i basically did this 6 days a week, unless of course, i was cooking dinner. on my days off i was so happy to just do NOTHING. sometimes i would take a trip to the next town, or a bigger town / city on the north coast. one time i went to agia galini and stayed overnight so that i could go to iraklion (the capital city) the next morning. i was by myself in a quiet town, eating dinner, staring out into the sea, happy to be alone and in a new place. my waitress was really nice, she came and sat down with me and talked to me about her life, growing up in athens and moving to agia galini in crete and starting a new life with her boyfriend. she asked me why didn't i want to live in agia galini? she said she was glad to be in a quieter place compared to the bustling city. she talked about how she didn't understand working so hard just to live and not really enjoying life. the people that i met in greece definitely had a different perspective about things. i am not sure if i really understand it. i definitely don't feel like moving out to the sticks just yet, but i have found myself asking the question, what am i doing here so many times and in so many different ways since i have returned. at this moment, there is nowhere else i'd rather be. but at the same time, i don't feel very useful. 2 september 2002 well, i did it. i updated the look of stellargirl yet again. i was getting a little bored of the way things were looking before. everything is pretty much the same, except that girls around the world is now called vagabond. expect to see a lot of writing happening there because most of my close friends are traveling / living around the world as we speak. thanks for stoppin' in. 1 september 2002 last night was fun, a bunch of us got together and celebrated joseph and federico's respective birthdays at marions continental in nyc. wanna see how much fun we had? visit the photos section. my friend susannah is also in town so today we went to see 24 Hour Party People, which is apparently like the "it" film of the moment. the funny thing is, it was the topic of conversation last night and i had never even heard of it. i am totally out of the loop of all things cool since i have been away, but i think it might be by choice. i am sort of focusing on other things right now. there will be a suprise on stellargirl in the coming weeks, hopefully sooner than later and there are so many things hanging in the balance right now that will soon become more clear. this weekend marks the official end of summer, at least in traditional terms, so i am hoping that things really start moving now. we've been spoiled with a sneak peak of autumn the last few days, i finally did NOT wear my flip flops out today. that was a bizarre feeling. i am sure soon enough, i will probably be wishing for warmer weather. speaking of warmer weather, i talked to some friends from crete on friday, it was so amazing to hear their voices. they had made their way back to london a bit earlier than planned. it sounds like things got really weird after i left, with soaring temperatures and flaring tempers. i am so happy that my experience was mostly positive, especially when i think about the relationships that developed there. i hate, i really hate, to use the Survivor analogy (as in that crap tv show), but when you put 10 people together to live and work and practice yoga, it can be difficult to maintain harmony at all times. enough about that, i 'd rather remember the good stuff. hope y'all have a nice labor day, take the day off or somethin'. april 2004 march 2004 february 2004 january 2004 december 2003 november 2003 october 2003 september 2003 summer 2003 may 2003 april 2003 march 2003 february 2003 january 2003 december 2002 november 2002 october 2002 september 2002 august 2002 summer 2002 april 2002 feb / march 2002 january 2002 december 2001 november 2001 sept / oct 2001 july / aug 2001 june 2001 may 2001 april 2001 march 2001 february 2001 january 2001 december 2000 november 2000 october 2000 september 2000 summer 2000 copyright © 2000-2005 - www.stellargirl.com