march 2001 3.27.01 i don't have too much to say except that it is awfully dark and gray in this place, and i am looking to brighten it up a bit for the spring. i have been working on a new design of sorts, for this or for something else. in other interesting news, i purchased 10! lovely rolls of film for my next impending trip. so good news, there will be some new pictures soon! have a good night! 3.26.01 so yesterday i went up to Point Reyes with some friends, it was a lot of fun. kinda crazy how much time i have been spending near the pacific ocean lately. we drove through beautiful marin countryside to get to the ocean. we walked down to the lighthouse and stared out into the sea where the whales were frolicking in their northern migration. the air was brisk and salty and i felt it tickle the back of my throat. i stood alone and looked out into the water, with fingers gripping the chain link fence that separated me from the cliffs below. this would be my second trip out to the pacific ocean this month, and since i have moved here. another discovery this weekend was the realization that i now own a DVD player! i have already begun to chip away at my roomate's unusual DVD collection. i also saw Traffic this weekend, you know, to get a good look at Benicio...he was good, and worthy of an Oscar -- even though Oscars are bullshit. my parent's dog's name is Oscar, he rocks! 3.23.01 i have not seen Traffic yet...what's up with that? i gotta now that practically everyone i know wants to get on Benicio Del Toro. does anyone remember any of his first acting gigs? no one believed me when i called that he was the Wolf Boy in Big Top Pee Wee...read it and WEEP! 3.22.01 with love from Joseph: "I was recently reading a site forwarded to me from my good friend by the name of roz, the sites name is getcrafty.com, and there was a list posting of funeral songs, I thought it was interesting, knowing how important music is to us, and how songs played at a funeral are somehow eventually remembered as the soundtrack of our lives, so I thought I would ask some of my friends, cosmic lovers, and otherwise special people to my heart what songs they feel like define their lives, what songs would provide that much needed sound track for our lives at our funerals.............. just out of morbid interest and more love than you know" sounds like a challenge...what song would you want played at your funeral? 3.21.01 my life needs the comfort of an aeron chair. save me, herman miller. 3.21.01 LET THEM DRINK ARSENIC! i would just like to take a moment to once again, thank George Bush for the wonderful things he is doing to our economy, our health care system, and now to our environment (read the latest article). keep up the good work! make sure you keep taking all those donations from big business, we know who you are serving -- the people with the big bucks! big bucks, big bucks, no whammies! $$$ yeah, that was total sarcasm. i hate that mo-fo. 3.20.01 more dream stuff. last night, i woke up in the middle of the night again, from a bad dream...i vaguely remember it being almost like a B horror movie -- there was some kind of murder plot, i was in the woods, and of course someone was after me. i really love that dream analysis section on excite.com. i was typing in some key things i remembered from my series of dreams last night....a word here and there, and then the obvious: death. here is it's description (taken from excite.com) : "death : This is usually a good omen. Dreaming of your own death indicates the end of financial worries or illness. If you spoke with someone who is dead, you will soon receive some good news. Often, dreaming of death is a prediction of a birth. And if you dream of the death of a friend who is far away, there will be a wedding." what got me was the speaking to someone who is dead part, if you remember reading last week, i wrote about having an exchange with my grandmother (click here to read)....so apparently, i am supposed to receive some good news. of course, i am deciding to see the positive implications of having such disturbing dreams of late. on a lighter note, i have been doing a little bit of housekeeping on the site, which reminds me -- check out the latest BUST magazine, it's all about housekeeping and the celebration of domestic activity! back to what i was saying, i have decided to change the name of the "news" section to "journal archive." i know it doesn't really sound like a big deal, but as a user, i would think that news was actually something more current, when you are basically just reading yesterday's thoughts. so if you want to read the "news" look no further, because anything new and interesting will be found right here on the very first page of the site! now doesn't that make you feel better? good. i am addicted to glitter messageboards on getcrafty. 3.19.01 so last night i had this really insane dream. i dreamt that i was on a train with some old friends and the train started going very fast, faster down a steep hill, to the point, where it had completely derailed and it was almost as though it was jumping from a cliff. i don't remember ever feeling such a physical sensation while dreaming...falling and losing control, while saying inside my head, "this is it. this is it." i woke up with a start at 4 am doubting that i would be able to go back to sleep. i looked up on excite.com today in their dream analysis section for the keywords "falling" and "train" and this is what i read: "falling -- Dreaming of falling is not at all unusual. It is generally symbolic of a fear that is bothering you in real life, e.g., failing in school or at work, not living up to the expectations of someone you love, sexual inadequacy, isolation, etc. The dream is an indication that you will encounter setbacks, but the details are important. Falling a long distance indicates severe reversals, but landing without hurting yourself means they won't last long. If you are standing or sitting and fall to the floor, beware of false friends. If you got up after the fall, you will overcome the obstacles in your path. And seeing others falling indicates a triumph over your enemies. train -- Boarding a train is a good omen for the future. Disembarking is a sign that you will have to deal with a brief emotional crisis. If the train was standing in the station or stuck on a sidetrack, it predicts an unexpected delay in your plans." i am not sure if either of those explanations apply to me currently, but perhaps they will shed some light on the future. in other news, this was a really great weekend, perfect perfect weather and lots of fun with friends. i picked up some new books yesterday and i am halfway through one of them already! a note about fortune cookies: i have been changing the fortune cookie (look to the left) message every week or so. i visited one of my favorite vegetarian restaurants in Berkeley this past weekend, and that was my fortune -- very good! the fortune cookie is a wonderful thing, gives you just that tiny bit of sweet that you need after a salty meal. and of course, it's wonderful because you get a bit of knowledge -- which you may ponder or merely laugh at. fun stuff! 3.16.01 at long last, i have some titanium in my life. the titanium G4 that is! how very exciting! its arrival has been long awaited. paging all artists! i am curious to know more about artists' rights. this morning, i found out that some photographs that i shot for a friend's band were used on their cd cover with no credit given to the photographer (me!). the thing that bugs me is giving artistic credit really is a simple way to say thank you for your help. i mean, i was doing them a favor by taking their pictures. i don't think that some people realize that my photographs belong to me, my vision, my camera, my framing, my art. get it? according to my initial investigation, the print job was rushed and the band didn't even get the chance to put in their thank you list. if this is indeed true, then a lot of people got screwed. but the truth is, nobody even told me that my images were being used. needless to say, i feel pretty hurt and pissed off. artists should always support other artists. we are all in this together. if you are reading this, and you have something to say or contribute, please email me and perhaps we can collaborate on something. i already know that this has happened to at least one of my artist friends. how can we protect ourselves! 3.15.01 it's a fact, jack! there will never be as awesome a boy as joseph in my life! thank you so much for your unexpected and fun gifts today! click here to see the fun that i got to enjoy this afternoon! contents included but were not limited to: soaps, japanese toothpaste and ginger candy, colorful kitchenware, a Miss Manners book, the book which the movie Boys Don't Cry was based on, a blue enamelware pitcher, etc, etc. thank you so much for the fun surprise! 3.14.01 later on... at long last, i have finally returned those horrendous pictures from joseph's going away party. i hope that you enjoy the snapshots. can you say LEEMUR? points of note: never trust those mail chutes that they have in tall buildings. i just saw someone's phone bill stuck between floors. also, utility companies suck! 3.14.01 so i had this really weird dream last night about my grandmother who passed away over a year ago. i was at her house with my family, her house where every room is pink from the ceiling to the carpets. i was sitting on one of the (pink) couches and she came towards me to say hello. she looked younger than she did at the end of her life, more like the Grandma that i remembered as a younger child. i reached out and touched her arm and i said, "you're not really here, are you?" she looked at me and smiled. i don't remember what we said to each other, but my head was telling me that she wasn't really there. my aunt sat across the room and whispered to my uncle. she gave me a knowing look as if she, too, had had this same experience. i woke up and i was surprised. why was this so vivid in my mind? it occurred to me on the bus this morning. i looked down at my fuzzy purple scarf. my first successful knitting project. last night i thought about an article i plan on writing about the joys of knitting (expect to read it soon!). i realized that this scarf, this odd shaped, stretched out scarf, my most favorite scarf, was crafted during the time i spent with my family, laying my grandmother to rest. it is the most special to me for that reason. i think every scarf i make is special, which is why i give them all away. 3.12.01 later on... i updated the photo section just a little bit. it was really bugging me that it wasn't consistent with the other pages. i am still frustrated, as always, because i really would prefer to have some sort of database set into place so i could update and archive much faster. one thing i realized is that i have these sections of photos dedicated to certain friends, with the intent that their group of images would somehow grow. but sadly, most of these people are back east, and i don't get to take so many pictures of them anymore. i will have to bring lots of film with me next time i go home!! 3.12.01 this weekend i saw the pacific ocean for the first time in my life, or at least in my memory. i was born in the philippines, so i know that as a child, i was near it a lot. maybe that is part of the reason why i felt like i did when i saw it. mesmerized. immediately, it brought to mind the colors, the gentle blues, that i saw in the photographs my parents took when they moved all around the pacific ocean -- they were doing such different things when they were my age. they were married, raising children, traveling, seeing, experiencing. i was seeing through their eyes, from a completely different perspective. we stopped and walked along the shore. it was windy and the sand was packed and wet below our feet. the waves were smooth and left behind trails of foam, bits of which skipped along the beach. i brought away with me a new memory and two new rocks. i had a lot of visual stimulation this weekend. i saw some beautiful paintings and looked at some good photo books. i also spent a lot of time outside, which was much needed...bye bye rainy days! i picked up the new Spoon cd yesterday, Girls Can Tell. so far, i am totally enjoying it. good news! i now have access to a cd-burner again. i would love to trade some mix cds. 3.9.01 weekend time-yaaayyy...it has been a long day to end a long week. the highlight of today (it's still early) was the visit to Thai Me Up, a fairly hidden thai restaurant by the Metreon. it is a really cool space. during the evenings, it is a night club, so yes, you will find a disco ball here and there. other than that, it has tons of exposed brick and these really sculptural white fabric shade sort of things everywhere. i imagine they are part of the evening lighting design, but during the day it feels like a secret and forgotten art gallery. good food, extremely cheap! what a great day, hope it last through the weekend because i would like to be outside! 3.8.01 i am absolutely dying to make some cool stuff. while i try to express myself through this website (i guess) -- wow, i really need to get my hands dirty. i am not a painter, but i want to paint. i want to make something happen with my hands. i want to touch photographs again, in trays of chemicals, with brushes full of emulsion, i want to smell sawdust and build frames and boxes...SF is not the best resource for studio space, but it does have a high concentration of people who are actively creating creating creating...let's begin. i have added some sites that i like to the left hand navigation on this page. getcrafty.com has always inspired me because it has lots of cool girls talking about making artsy stuff and living life on an budget. fecalface.com was introduced to me by a friend a few weeks ago -- it is a great resource for some of the cool art events happening in the city. k10k.com, aka, Kaliber 10000, showed up in my referrer list, but i remember that it is a friend of a friend from an old job. wow, that reminds me ...numedialab.com. thanks jason! (note: this site has been crashing my browser -- Mac IE5 -- help!) one last site to add to cool sites is d-zine.org. i met the creator in an interview the other day, nice work rob!! people always ask me what my favorite sites are, and i always draw a blank!! but now i remembered that there are a lot of sites that i do go to and you should check them out, too. i am going to work more on my links list... 3.7.01 here is an interesting fact of the day, smaller bubbles are stronger than bigger bubbles. what a random observation, you must be thinking. well, today at lunch, in the break room at work, a soap bubble came from somewhere and it just floated about the room for several minutes...more minutes than you would expect. it was really cool. i remember blowing soap bubbles as a child, making beds of bubbles on the soft summer grass. i also remember catching jewel-toned japanese beetles on a long july day. this morning on the bus, which i might add, was a pleasant MUNI experience since i went to work an hour late, i was having another weird childhood memory...perhaps more in the adolescent domain. i was remembering the catty group of girls that i used to run with and how we used to always fight with each other. we would get so mad at each other, we would actually write down the things that we were mad about so we wouldn't lose the argument (over the phone). this so-called "list of grievances" contained such major crimes as a) getting caught saying things behind your friend's back, b) copying your friend's totally original style (purchased at the mall, of course), c) flirting with the boy who was (unknowingly) on the receiving end of a major crush, etc. ad infinitum, ad nauseum. come to think of it, things haven't changed too much ;) a very interesting experiment is currently taking place amongst several of my peers. expect the results soon. they are quite fascinating, and i will say -- not exactly what i expected! have i sucked you in? very good then... 3.5.01 woohoo! FINALLY, christine has once again graced stellargirl with her effervescent London Diary. please read and enjoy her latest entry. i saw the movie Pollock this weekend...it was really incredible. excellent story and cinematography. please go see it! 3.2.01 if you know what's good for you, go listen to the "100,000 Fireflies" cover by the magnetic fields. it is so beautiful and i listen to it all the time. it's raining. my pants are bright orange. more later... 3.1.01 i didn't think that anyone would notice that i had not yet written today....well, it's late and my dear joseph reminded me that i had not written my first entry this march. hello march! welcome spring! i don't have too much to report. i am currently gathering the data from my latest social experiment. it is collaborative. expect some results soon. for the time being, enjoy a silly journal entry that appeared in my notebook late last evening. written in ink, transferred to type -- for the mere purpose of stellargirl filler, or, as we like to call it around here -- FLUFF! do you want to know what makes me happy? clothes. new, colorful, fun clothes. spring clothes. and then i like to take them and hang them up in my partially anal-retentive closet. it goes from pants to sleeveless tops to shortsleeve tops to longsleeve to button down to cardigan to hoody to turtleneck to dress. i had a hanger that used to hold several skirts with clips. i moved the skirts, however, because i needed the hanger to air dry my pants and i never wear skirts anyway. but i did yesterday since it was such a nice day. i probably looked like i had tree trunks for legs since i wore my platfom boots. yeah, so clothes, new to me, can make me happy. i have music phases, shoe phases, and art phases, but the clothes phase is definitely the most common. and perhaps the most satisfying. red pen. red ink. new day. earthquake in seattle but not in san francisco. no computer. walks up hills. friendly banter. boy chasing. saturday night party. photographic event? change in the weather. avoiding checkbook balance. living life. putting myself out there. being real... the sun has taken its usual position behind the clouds, better yet beyond the horizon at this moment. the colors in my life remain bright.. hope all is well, precious readers. april 2004 march 2004 february 2004 january 2004 december 2003 november 2003 october 2003 september 2003 summer 2003 may 2003 april 2003 march 2003 february 2003 january 2003 december 2002 november 2002 october 2002 september 2002 august 2002 summer 2002 april 2002 feb / march 2002 january 2002 december 2001 november 2001 sept / oct 2001 july / aug 2001 june 2001 may 2001 april 2001 march 2001 february 2001 january 2001 december 2000 november 2000 october 2000 september 2000 summer 2000 copyright © 2000-2005 - www.stellargirl.com