july / august 2001 8.26.01 still nothing new to say, but new pics, check them out! click here 8.20.01 wow, it has been several weeks since i have written on here. many of you have probably stopped checking up on me! i'm sorry, but i haven't had much to say lately -- i guess i have been keeping it all up in my head. or maybe i have been blabbing about it to all of my friends, or writing it down on paper, or somewhere else. i think my friends can vouch for the blabbing. by the end of this month, i have decided that everything is going to be different. and part of this change might just be to stay the same. long story, i'll let you know when i figure it out. the six feet under back to back season finale was on tonight. i have been hooked on that show all summer. it really expresses so many points of view and touches on a lot of issues that people don't always talk about openly. get hooked when it comes back for round 2 in the spring. no, i don't work for HBO! i checked out PS1 yesterday for one of the few remaining saturday summer warm-ups. it was so much fun! it was cool to hang out with some old friends and some new ones. i was out of town for a few weeks and since i have been back it has just been nonstop fun, people to see, things to do, subways that come right on time! it's good to notice that stuff! 8.2.01 happy august to you! a friend recently told me to check out this site, www.astrologyzone.com, for some unbelievable monthly horoscopes. it's madness, i say -- mine was right on! well, it seemed so... august has yet to rear its ugly head. supposedly, i am going to have a wonderful weekend. sounds a little too good to be true. i am out of my normal element today, walking barefoot in the grass, picking fresh basil, and just being very quiet. it's serene. 7.27.01 i haven't felt like writing much, i think i have another temporary outlet. check out this RIDICULOUS story about a family who is offering the highest bidding corporate sponsor the chance to name their baby. click here to read it. it makes me really sick, i can't believe these people are doing this. must run errands. cheerio. 7.25.01 a letter from a dear friend who writes the best emails: hey there miss craftycakes: long time no write. i've been keeping tabs on you and your hot sultry summer up in the big shiny crunch, and was searching for jobs for myself today and saw this job and it kinda jumped out at me and said "you asshole, email roz! she'd be great for this job!" i mean, it may be a little different than what you've done in the past, but it seems like it could pull together all of your strengths and give you the opportunity to do something crazy and new. i mean, who knew there was a graduate center for decorative design and art, huh? not me, but way cool. also, i'm going to forward you the rest of that list that was emailed to me by penn's career services, there's a lot of graphic design stuff that you may be interested in as well. as for me, well, things have truck-truck-truckin' along here in the grand old city of philly. i'm absolutely lovin' my summer (being cognizant of the fact, however, that it is summer so my mood is generally lighter and more optimistic). chillin' out in a city that's like wearing your favorite pair of busted sneaks and holding your blankie from when you were a kid is just what i needed. now, what i need past this summer, weh-hell, who knows. i'm immersed in a rather liberating process of peeling off/disolving a layer of anxiety that has pervaded my life for the past two years. because things haven't necessarily worked out like i thought they would these past two years (and i've totally come to the realization that things never work out like you really want them to. it wouldn't be so much fun if they did) i've decided to just tweak my habits a little bit, you know, do the opposite of what i normally do. whereas normally i would be stressing about where i will be in the fall, now i'm just enjoying the summer and the friends that i have made, and going to the beach, and groovin to the beats in philly (jill scott put on an awesome show for the 4th at the museum. the the 4th is always good in philly though), and findin' some trouble, not too much, to get myself in, just to keep it spicy!!!! a pinch of this, a smidge of that has made this summer amusing and livable and laughable and lovable and it's only july 10 and christine gets back in a WEEK (she's moving in with me... i mean really, let the good times roll. you WILL have to come visit) so there you have it my fair stellargirl, some news from a not so stellar correspondent, but a friend who thinks of you often. hope your bitin' nyc in the ass! arrrrrrgh! summer lovin', chris ps- as the unofficial KING of the bad haircut... the only way to cure it: chase it with a bottle of gin within 1 hour of said disaster, cry and moan for yourself, then laugh and scream "why me" to the sky. works every time. 7.22.01 things have been really crazy during the last few days. i am writing from pittsburgh, PA where my cousin just got married and i have been totally overwhelmed by family. it was really nice to spend so much time with people that i haven't seen, some for almost 10 years. anyway, the wedding was really fun and my cousin married this british guy, so it was a rocking good time. as a matter of fact, the highlight of the evening could have been when we took the trolley from the reception to the hotel at the end of the night. disco music was blasting, people were laughing and dancing, and the drinks were still flowing. it was a great ride. at the hotel, the party continued in the bar... even jon bon jovi was there! talk about a party. i haven't been writing so much lately, i have been pretty confused about my life and my goals, but i think things are going to be okay. life is too short to worry too much about anything. and it's also too short to weigh yourself down with troubles, and you can't please everyone. and clearly, not everyone can please you! so i say, be who you are. 7.16.01 i am clicking my red sparkly shoes and muttering, "there's no place like home....there's no place like home...."    7.12.01 3000 miles away from all that is familiar and i feel very at home. isn't it funny how things work? i have been spending a lot of time with one of my great friends out here who is moving herself. i am glad that i decided to come here, because it is a chance for us to say goodbye to this place together. this past year has been so interesting in terms of changes. being here makes me feel like that isn't so bad after all. maybe it's okay to be so free. 7.10.01 i am writing to you from 30,000 feet. i love my new ibook, but i have a serious bone to pick with it today. it seems that the cd/dvd player will not open unless you insert a pin or paperclip into it. i thought that when i first got it, i was able to press the eject button the keyboard. i guess i didn't. i don't remember. i was hellbent on watching my dvd on this flight, however, so i thought about all of the possible items on my person that might be able to perform the job of a pin or paperclip, of which i had neither. and yes, i did ask the flight attendant for one. she simply responded with, "did you want anything to drink?" i remembered one piece of jewelry that might do the job. my nosering. and let me tell you, my nosering has come out only 3 to 4 times in a 5 year period. it is no easy task, not to mention the fact that it is a pretty bizarre thing to watch. i decided to go for it, though. i yanked and tugged and bent the ring and got it out. then i turned my laptop on its side and started poking and prodding it with my bent little piece of metal. voila! i got the dvd player open! i set the dvd in the tray, closed it up and then carefully slipped my nosering back into place. this is an even harder task, i might add. you have to bend the ring back to its original shape, while the thing is in your nose. so imagine me sitting here yanking and pulling on my nose, probably looking pretty gross to the strangers that i am surrounded by. finally i got it back to a makeshift ring and then i realized that i managed to draw some blood.... in the name of a dvd!! and wouldn't you know it. i return my attention to my laptop to see that, whoops! the ibook does not recognize the dvd. i would like to thank apple computer for this event today.   7.9.01 say hello to my friend oscar. it's hot in the city. people are crazy or maybe it's just me. i am rushing to the nearest ocean for some serenity. the nearest one is actually pretty far away. if i said much else, i would just be venting. why don't you talk? send me something interesting that you have to say. cheers. 7.8.01 so i guess yesterday turned out better than expected. we went to the PS1 summer warmup and it was totally awesome. in fact, MOBY was in attendance. that's what i call a party. we went to a bar later and i was pleased to find the magnetic fields in the jukebox. that was a first for me. i guess i have been going to the wrong kind of establishments. this week has been pretty busy socially. i met some great girls from the glitter messageboard on getcrafty the other night. some of us were meeting for the first time, some others knew each other already. it was wonderful to spend some time with like-minded people. a bunch of us brought some projects that we were working on or just beginning. i swear, i never thought i would be able to turn to the person next to me and say, "hey, am i purling the right way?" i'm so impatient. 7.7.01 today is a good day. i went to get my hair trimmed and the lady cut off all of my hair. i went to the bathroom and the toilet wouldn't flush. i went to take a shower and the tub was filled with water from my roomate's shower. i looked up at the ceiling and it's still all torn apart from last week's leak. i went to take my shoes off and i have a blister on my foot. i went to get a job and my job counselor got laid off. this afternoon i am going to PS1 for the summer warm up. i am hoping that my luck will fare better. have a nice weekend. 7.2.01 i have really big feet. i have had them all my life, but sometimes i really like to take notice of just how huge my dogs are. i also have really flat feet. one of my friends used to say that if you saw my footprints on a beach, they would look like the outlines of cinder blocks. it's practically true. i always stare at people's feet on the subway, especially since it is sandal season. i see all kinds of feet, long and narrow, short and fat, pretty toes, big toes, little toes. it's fascinating. one day last spring, me and my friends joseph and michelle were sitting on the stoop of the design studio that i used to work for. it was a hot day so we took our shoes off. between the 3 of us, we had very different feet. michelle's perfectly formed feet, joe's sorta gnarly yet feminine feet, and my brightly painted fred flinstones. i asked one of my coworkers to come outside and check out the tootsie display on the condition that he must come sans shoes. he laughed at me like i was joking, but no, i was serious. a few minutes passed and out he came with bare feet blazin'. it was quite a site, 4 pairs of different kinds of feet, each with its own personality. joseph had his polaroid camera, so he caught it all on film. the exhibit is currently gracing one of his kitchen cabinets. seeing someone's bare feet is sort of like seeing a secret side of them. i kind of hate summer because it is so hot, but i love to bring out the bare feet. there is nothing like sitting close to someone you fancy and letting your feet mingle, it's sexy. okay, time to get my mind out of the gutter. 7.1.01 there is nothing better than family. when i grew up, my brother and my sister and i were very close. i remember summers past with hot days at the pool, long nights catching lightning bugs and playing flashlight tag. i don't even remember how that game goes anymore. but i know that we always had fun. i also remember chasing each other around the house and the madness that would ensue when my brother would babysit me and my sister. we acted like maniacs, and they always knew how to scare me by bringing out the "mask" -- this ugly halloween mask that put the fear of god in me! one time we left a pizza box in the oven and it caught on fire, but we could handle it. we were tough kids. growing up happens so quickly it seems. of course, when you're young, you think that time just can't go fast enough. i remember the summer that my brother left to go to the naval academy. they called it "plebe summer" and it was a pretty momentous time for the new midshipmen. we spent the weekend in muggy Annapolis, the first time to break our family circle as our brother left the nest. my sister cried when we saw my brother with his newly shaved head, wearing his new military uniform. everything had changed overnight. pretty soon, she was on her way to college, and then it was my turn. now we are scattered across the country, moving, and traveling, and experiencing life. last night one of my best friends from home came to visit us and we had the best time. i remember thinking that i wished that my sister could have been out with us, too. it has been 10 years since we have lived in the same city. and tonight, i checked my email and my brother responded to the what makes a friend a good friend? question and he said that i was a good friend. it made me so happy and i really wish that we could all be together again. but the way we are, the way our parents taught us to be, is to always be challenging ourselves and trying new things, and reaching higher. and if we just stood still and never changed and never saw new things, we wouldn't ever be happy. my sister's wedding in may brought us all together again and made me think that we really need to try and be together a little more frequently. our family has grown so much since that summer in Annapolis, and it will always be growing and changing. i'm just lucky to get stuck with the family i got. happy july! april 2004 march 2004 february 2004 january 2004 december 2003 november 2003 october 2003 september 2003 summer 2003 may 2003 april 2003 march 2003 february 2003 january 2003 december 2002 november 2002 october 2002 september 2002 august 2002 summer 2002 april 2002 feb / march 2002 january 2002 december 2001 november 2001 sept / oct 2001 july / aug 2001 june 2001 may 2001 april 2001 march 2001 february 2001 january 2001 december 2000 november 2000 october 2000 september 2000 summer 2000 copyright © 2000-2005 - www.stellargirl.com